Hey everyone. How are y'all? I know it's been a while since I've updated. Sorry... been having a bit of a writer's block. I really need to get out of this funk. My life seems to be in a rut. I'm 30 years old, I'm unemployed and I'm single. Next step... crazy cat lady. haha No... that will never happen! (I still love my friends who are crazy cat ladies though hehe)
Anyway... last week I saw this old movie called, "It's a Wonderful Life" for the first time. And at the last scene I just broke down and cried like a baby. It was not a sad ending. It was so happy, that I was overwhelmed with emotion and tears of joy just rolled down my face.
The past 12 months have been a bit rough on me. I got screwed over by potential employers, some friends showed their true colors, I literally lost a part of my ceiling and floor at my family home in Mumbai, and financially it was rough as well. And well the love life was non existent. Just the usual pervs who wanted to be with me but not be seen with me. I want to be someone's reality NOT a fetish fantasy. Lets just say I dodged a huge bullet.
I was sooo down in the dumps that my 30th birthday didn't feel special enough. (It was awesome and I loved all of it. But um... y'all forgot the cake. I love cake... please for the love of Dumbledore... don't forget it the next time)
I was even having countless arguments with my best friend. In the end, we both realized that in a healthy relationship, there are fights, arguments, resentments and momentary lapse of judgement. But after all of that mess, our bond is stronger than ever. We'd marry each other if we didn't like men so much.
My friends mean the world to me. Even when they royally fuck up, I always see the best in them and be there for them. These friends of mine... the good, the bad and the ugly, have been there for me, listening to me bitch about everything and asking why me and why not me and when will life change and why am I such a failure?
Even the ones who have screwed me over, have come through on many occasions, lifting my spirits by encouraging me and giving me the strength to move on. The best thing anyone can say to me is, "You made my day!" Somehow I just love to lift people's spirits and see them smile.
So I might not have a lot of money, not the body that is accepted by the world (I am still sexy no matter what people say), don't have a job... I still have what keeps me going and that is a wealth of friends. The old and the new and I have met some really nice people recently. They make me feel like a winner when I feel like a loser. They make me feel like Cinderella when I feel like the ugly step sister. And some give me the harsh truth about the world that I absolutely respect them for.
'It's a Wonderful Life' made me realize what I already knew and had. It's an amazing movie and should be on your watch list. You will feel so amazing after watching it. Lets watch it together sometime and please bring tissues and ladies please don't wear any eye make-up unless you want to look like Alice Cooper.
Mindspill: It's this picture below from "It's a Wonderful Life"